New Me

Most of the people that know me know that I am a pretty private person concerning certain things. In April 2007, I was working at a local law firm and I was fired. I didn't work again until July 2007. I also put on about 30 lbs., which was easy since Nick was gone and Zachary was little. I didn't like the way I looked and I tried other weight loss methods, with no luck. I kept seeing these commercials for Jenny Craig. I knew that if I stuck with the plan, I would be able to lose the weight. I started the program on May 4th. Initially, I was planning on losing 40 lbs., which would have put me at the weight I was when I graduated from high school. As the program progressed and I started losing the weight, I decided that 40 lbs was too much to lose. I re-evaluated and decided that 30 lbs was better. So far I have lost 25 lbs. And it has been the easiest diet I have been on. There is no thinking about the plan or the food. Everything is given to you and you add in fresh grocery items. I have weekly meetings with a consultant, who has been very supportive. I had all these clothes in my closet from before Zachary was born and even after that I haven't been able to wear. I can now fit in those clothes and I'm even buying clothes that are smaller than those. I like the way I look now and am happy that I did this.

Taking a Time Out

This afternoon, I got to talk to Nick on webcam. It was, as always, great. I love being able to see his face and the idea of being able to talk and see him when we're so far apart. After I talk to him, I always feel this sense of calm, always. Especially if I haven't talked to him in a few days. This afternoon, I went outside and it wasn't too terribly hot, so I decided to sit a while on the swing Nick built me. I sat for a while and decided that a glass of wine sounded really good so I went in the house and got one. As I sat on the swing, I looked up in the sky and it was a little gloomy. If you know me, you know that I love gloomy weather. It puts me in the best mood. Odd, I know. Anyway, I was so calm and I took time to just be with myself and alone. Zachary was so good; he was in the house watching tv and let me have some quiet time. I don't get to have quiet time that often so when I do, I cherish it. I took some time to reflect on my life too. I have an amazing husband who will do anything for me, and son that makes me happy I'm alive. I try to take care of myself but it's hard sometimes. As a wife and mom, and I think this is true of alot of women, you sacrifice so many things for others. I try to take time for myself in the evenings and do something for me. It can be something so little as making a pot of decaf coffee or some tea and having a cup or two. Or reading in the silence of the house. Or watching a movie. It's so hard to take a time out for ourselves but it's so important for our sanity. I know it is for mine.